Today I can’t contain this information I hold or the words that are begging to be shouted out for all to hear.
We must open .. to loving Darkness .. as much as Light ..or we will not be able to move out of patriarchy. We have been living in a only Light is sacred time until Light/Fire is becoming out of balance and destructive.
If our planet didn’t rotate into Darkness it would have burned up long ago.
If we didn’t have darkness we would Do, Do, Do until we burned up or burned out. This is when depression moves in.
In order to accept wholeness we must let go of Needing … Desiring .. good and polarities and the biggest polarity is Light versus Dark.
Our whole solar system lives in dark energy .. which is actually magnetic potential. Potential resides in Darkness and is the energy needed for creation … for creating and it is FREE.
However, we have been told for thousands of years that darkness is bad .. that everything bad is “dark” then only those who understand this LIE can prosper.
Rather surprised, even stunned at all the similarities of my novel series AWAKENING EARTH CHRONICLES and our current events!!
So what is similar?
1. Our Mother Earth/Gaia is expanding
2. There is a pandemic in which many are quarantined. But it’s mostly positive as a way to connect and change our relationship with Earth/Gaia
3. Everything about government
begins to change
4. All Life is affected
5. Humans come together to be of service.
Read ANCIENT MEMORIES, CURSES OF SPIRITS AND FEAR OF UNITING
I was recently awakened by Gaia speaking to me! I don’t recall that ever happening to me before. I was told that humans are separating into the different elements. Fire people, Water people, Soil people and Air people.
We will not be able to unite globally or even nationally until we own these attributes within ourselves and become the 5th element which is when all 4 elements are united within consciously.
Many of us have united several elements within but not all. The next leaders will be owning, living and expressing all 4 elements.
In our own creative process nothing manifests unless all 4 elements are present.
Soil is matter, Water helps Soil stick together and hold a form, Air expands and makes this Water/Soil form lighter and Fire is the energy that moves the creation.
As people; Fire people are Doers, need to be busy. Water people are feelers, connected to Being, Air people are thinkers, Soil people are connected to Nature. Each type of person seeks different types of creativity and employment according to their strongest interest. love and dedication.
I am getting that our ability to create will be changing. Love and gratitude for the elements must be present rather than love for money. This will change us (and confuse) government’s and the wealth of the very wealthy. Intuition and instinct will be needed to decipher the lies that will dominate media.
In other words we are entering a new decade with different invisible rules and lessons to be learned.
I’d like to share my major ahh ha this week. It starts with the huge realization this morning that Nature and my inner and outer Darkness feel the same to me. They are both nurturing, slowed down, a feeling energy that allows me to feel safe, protected, loved.
However, I have for 40 years worked on clearing all the negative emotions from experiences that I experienced in Darkness. mostly sexual. that had made Darkness a scary place.
When I had finally cleared most of those emotions I had a powerful and unforgettable visit to the huge Darkness of the universe and felt it’s loving creative presence.
I began to love my personal space of Darkness. I can be there for hours, my eyes closed, without responding to any technology. It’s very peaceful and contemplative. The same feeling I have when I step into a tree scape, or be by a river, or lake at night or during the day.
The Light of day is pure too but the Light that humans have created and cocreated holds many painful beliefs and hurtful experiences that have to be healed before we can truly embrace a purer Light.
We want to embrace Light coming from outside our planetary home or someone who feels like they truly radiate light. But that person has healed the emotional experiences and beliefs that polluted their energy field.
The pollution we are experiencing on our planet now is our creation and it is held in our emotional bodies and it polluted our Light essence.
The anger, the fires, the beliefs, the blame, guilt, the superiority over each other, cruelty, competition. All the energy of these emotions and beliefs fill and contaminate and pollute our individual Light essence.
There are many people healing these aspects in themselves. I had not seen this purity of Light and Darkness this way before. I still see a lot of “badness” in my/our Light which means I still have more to heal but I now have a window of clarity that I can and will aspire to.
We’ve reached a place of vision overload in our culture. That means we are putting all our attention into what we see. Our listening skills are diminishing as we prefer texting short sentences to talking on the phone or even talking in person.
Hearing was the most prominent sense when the radio made it’s debut. Listening became very important because we couldn’t see who was speaking. We had to really focus our attention on listening to every word. We had to imagine what the speaker looked like. At that time the vision sense took a back seat to the auditory sense. Now it has reversed.
Our vision is more connected to our logical mind whereas our hearing is more connected to our creative mind. So the shift to our vision is creating more attachment to our logical mind.V
Visionis enhanced by light. Our eyes crave light. Now we have very close intense light added to our vision commentary which tends to make it addictive.
The question which arose for me as I have been preparing to facilitate Owning Our Intuition, An Experiential Journey is … which sense needs to be ready to take the lead?
We are entering a time where what we read can no longer be trusted. What we thought was truth too often is not.
I believe intuition is the next sense that will have to be owned, that trust in what we feel, see, hear, touch will have to come from within, from our intuition. That means trusting our own bodies, it means being more present with each moment. It means accepting an inmate intelligence within us and letting go of logical mind totally dominating our consciousness.
This had to happen to the characters in my novels, Awakening Earth Chronicles, in order to move out of the past into present time.
I woke up about 3am this morning in a lucid type of dream in which I was being shown, or taught, the difference between “I” and “We” relationships.
“I” relationships tend to be competitive, with. each person dedicated to their own journey.
“We” relationships are inclusive, both parties wanting the interaction of the other.
If an “I” person is in a relationship with a “We” person, the “We” person will expect a relationship, will feel responsible for all aspects because the “I” person sees it differently, they need more separation.
If I say I am a democrat, I separate myself from republicans. If I say I am an American I am more inclusive.
My journey in this dream was about my relationship with Earth/Gaia. How do I as a human let go of that “I” to become a “We” with Earth/Gaia? I saw an imprinted superiority of “I” as human (or maybe as a white person) that would have to be shed.
I have in the last couple years begun asking questions and listening to trees. They tell me what they want to be called. It has been up to me to ask questions, but they do answer them. So far they have not asked me anything or I haven’t chosen to hear.
I’ve been noticing how much my little Chihuahua, Sammy tries to converse with me but I speak English and he speaks dog. His tail is part of his communicating process. He gets so excited when I finally get what he’s been trying to tell me!
I walked Sammy, this morning and stopped to talk to a favorite tree, who wants to be called Rosa. I asked Rosa what it was like to have me ask questions and listen to her answers. She said it was the difference between being observed and being SEEN.
I sense my next step is being willing and open to be seen by Earth/Gaia. I can feel “I” needs to be let go of to experience a new “We”.
I had a discussion today with a friend about reaction and how it victimizes us. Of course we both had a few experiences where we felt victimized to share and examine.
We agreed that we have a choice in each moment to respond or react to any situation but to respond we must be totally present.
When we first experience something, we have no experience to guide us. We both agreed that we often hide within when this happens and become submissive. My observer can see me afraid to act. By hiding within I am cut off from parts of Self that can protect this body. This can bring up fear. I may project my fear outward, perhaps hoping “the other” will show compassion. I am unable to act when I “hide” within.
The second type of reaction is where I use anger to come forward energetically and scare “the other” into hiding. (reaction). This can happen when I feel the need to control a situation.
Both of these reactions come from separation within myself caused by judgment, fear and competition.
When I am fully present and focusing more on gratitude and trust of myself and “the other” I don’t have to Be perfect. My words and actions then feel appropriate. I feel centered, not hiding within and not pushing outward, therefore I have access to all of Self. There is no competition. Response allows me to feel whole, relaxed, sometimes elated, trusted, part of a conversation that flows like a gentle river.
Reaction happens when I feel separated and create a wall around Self. It feels like two wells that can’t quite grasp the others depth, clarity or pollution. When there is no trust of Self or the “other” I will likely fall into the old pattern of reacting.
I have been a TreeSister for 1 1/2 years. It’s a great program, contributing to planting trees and supporting women plus an in-depth spiritual program and connection to other women globally. Plus connecting to Trees! Deep meditations and heart sharing in a world that has seemed more cutting than embracing.
I have connected more and more deeply with trees, asking questions and having a voice answer that sometimes almost blows me over. The love from trees is intense and of course they are a lot bigger than me.
I noticed how the taller, elder trees held a different energy than the younger 40 to 60 year old trees. To stand in the presence of a tree that you know is several hundred years old is a true gift.
I meditated on this gift of energy bestowed and got that trees not only breathe us as we breathe them but they store a history of all they have breathed in their trunks. They create a sense of peace, that we live on as they live on, but when we continually harvest them we in our ignorance also diminish our connection to our own area, our Earthly home, our sense of peace.
I can walk around the area I live in and almost all the trees are about 50 years old. There are a few close to 100 and they emit a sense of elderlyness and wisdom that the younger trees do not.
I see that pattern in our life, that pattern that elders are no longer important. I also see the pattern for youth, as more baby trees are planted but our pattern has been to harvest them, at 40 to 60 years. I think the children feel this in their breath.
The wisdom, It’s in every breath we breathe. Buddah found enlightenment sitting under a very old tree for seven weeks. He breathed in all the wisdom
from all who had walked before him stored in the ancient trunk of that tree. That bodhi tree is now 2500 years old and still alive!
The polarity we are living in is very visible to me but perhaps not to all and is obviously avoided by news media. The polarity is between Water and Fire. Fire creates movement for all Life forms but is usually perceived as light or is invisible.
Our world has taken Fire into physical form as constant destruction. War and weaponry are fire energy and are constantly used as our way to get control of fossil fuels. Fossil fuels are then turned into more physical fire (which creates money for those in control of Fire at this time.)
Fire is a natural Element instrumental in the creation of Life. (Along with Soil, Air and Water.) Fire is of Nature and in it’s natural form not meant to be controlled. In it’s physical form, Fire as weaponry is controlled. Fire in it’s natural physical form is not very controllable and as out of control energy becomes hungry and is now moving into forests creating even more of a disfunction in our climate and is now affecting water in it’s frozen form.(Melting ice)
What hit me today is how our government is using I.C.E. to scream of it’s terror of the rising tides of people and the need for a huge wall, a wall to keep out the refugees fleeing countries where “our out of balance Fire energy” melted their economy. (Income, Country and Economy: ICE)
Like rising waters the people flee but as actual ice melts because of this out of balance destructive Fire energy, the focus is all on “those risingrpeople” when we could be building actual sea walls that will be needed very soon to protect all the coastal cities.
This is when Intuition is talking but those with power to help with actual change are not listening. Instead they are reacting, pretending that out of balance Fire is not there. Pretending they have nothing to do with ice melting.
The shift must be made away from Fire to Water, the sacredness of Water for all Life’s survival. If we begin to focus on water we will see what needs to be done for the well being of all Life forms instead of unconsciously creating more destruction.
Channeling a story needs me to be at least 2 people, maybe 3! One of me sits quietly in a high enough frequency to see and feel a beam of whitish, golden light the width of my shoulders, come into my body and crown chakra. There were no words, but there were lots of pictures, people and was like watching a movie with no sound. I observed a story unfolding. The channelling of Awakening Earth Chronicles took 4 intense years.
The 2nd part of me had to translate this frequency, all these pictures that appeared, into words, words that explained the story that I was watching inwardly with my third eye.
Then another part of me would frequently dream at night about different episodes of the story. The dreams connected me to the feelings in the story. I had no logical sense of where the story was going. I had to trust this process of an unfolding story.
It’s been 3 years since I published Fear of Uniting, the last book in the Chronicles and in these last years I have reread all 3 books about 5 times. Each time I reread them I feel I am integrating the wisdom I was channelling that still needs to be integrated into more parts of me, into my conscious Self. In other words my characters in AWAKENING EARTH CHRONICLES are more conscious than me and give me direction! I have to reread my novels to continuec to integrate the wisdom into the logical part of me that wasn’t invited into the channelling, writing experience!
I needed to write this today to understand my own process!!
There was a time when I would not have admitted that I talked to trees OR that I could ask them questions and they would reply! I would have been considered crazy, in need of meds. Now I’m an Elder, a Crone and have reached that place of knowing that our whole society has been programmed to not trust Self. It’s better for capitalism. Once I realized that I gave myself permission to delve into “trust me and my senses.”
It was just last summer and I had said hello to my favorite 2 trees every day for at least a year but on this warm delightful morning, I mused, I wonder what your name is and immediately heard, Satcha. But it wasn’t just hearing her name, it was the huge energy that totally embraced me as I heard her name. My heart quickened and expanded. l heard and experienced a new frequency. I felt intensely loved.
I couldn’t ask the other tree her name that day because I was already over -awed. The next morning, I decided, I would ask the other tree. But when I went out I couldn’t help saying “good morning Satcha” and was again embraced with her huge energy, my heart again expanded and I almost fell over.
It took several days until I could accommodate Satcha’s energy and was ready to ask the second tree her name. Part of me was a little scared, what if she was even more powerful? Or would she feel exactly the same even though she was a different variety of tree?
I said, “hello, what is your name?” I immediately heard Frizzel. Then I felt her energy, which was very different from Satcha’s. Frizzel’s energy was more like her airy looking treebody. It too was large and embracing and yet like hugging people, each Treehug is different.
Once I said hello, I learned that both had voices and both wanted to share. They both said people talk to them frequently but it was rare to have a person actually let them communicate. People talked they didn’t listen.
I learned that trees planted alone are bigger talkers. The trees planted as families are not lonely.
I’ve also learned that when it’s cold out I protect myself, my arms hold me closer, hugging my body and I can’t feel them as much as I can when its warmer. I have given myself the delight of feeling many trees. The elder trees have much larger, stronger energy than the younger trees. It’s very sad how often older trees are cut down and replaced with smaller, younger trees. That brings to mind how older women are often replaced with younger women and Elder people are not much appreciated either.
What do you think?
I have loved trees for a long time, but talking and listening to them is new.
This dream I had recently shook me deeply and awakened a need to go deeper into communicating with trees.
A dream woke me this morning, it was actually a foot tall sapling, a baby pine. Her roots were being touched and nourished by an Elder pine. She must be Elder because she’s very tall and sapling can feel her love. But then a few humans come along with a very noisy something and sapling hears Elder crying, then the ground shakes intensely as Elder falls, the tenuous connection of the two pulling away from Sapling and Sapling feels the huge loss of love from Elder plus the lost root connection and wonders if she can make it in this lonely human world.
I felt nauseous and very tearful.I decided I needed to do more to understand our relationship with trees. I wanted to talk to other people who also communicated with trees so I created a flyer and in my walk with my dog Sammy, I stopped at 15 homes with big elder trees and left a flier on their door asking them to call me to be interviewed for an article I was writing if they too communicated with the big Elder tree in their yard. I shared some of my beliefs and experiences.I didn’t ask the trees that day if the human in the house communicated.
So far no calls.
Today I walked by 9 of those trees on our walk again. I asked each tree, does any human in this house talk to you. I got more no’s than yeses. One of the larger trees said it was threatened to be cut down often because it made humans house too dark, Other trees said humans were angry if they had to pick up their branches or cones. Only one tree of the 9 felt loved even though they all have a very large presence of love that extends out many feet from their trunk.
Mostly trees said humans talk at them but don’t ask questions or expect a reply. I plan on visiting with more trees this week.
Extinction, a word that is causing my stomach to hurt. My mind wants to delete the word as if that might change this course of events. But what I saw in a meditation is that most humans have been trained to control everything in our lives. That means that “wild” is bad, might hurt us, must be controlled.
I think that means it’s time to learn how to be “wild”. What does it mean to be “wild”? I remember as a child every time I got too dirty or did something my parents didn’t approve of, I was wild.
As a female teenager, wild was dangerous. If guys thought you were wild, that meant you were free with your sexuality. Dress codes controlled most wildness. Girls and women have been more controlled than boys and men,they got, “oh boys will be boys.” A woman exposing her breast to feed her imfant in public is still considered too wild,for most women in 2019!
Way too many of us have bought into wild is dangerous or bad. Now we have social media to control our actions and regular media to make sure whatever is done has a file and can be found, just in case we need to be controlled. Of course wildness is allowed in the entertainment world but only as a product, not as something allowed off stage.
What if we as humans have reached a time in which we must each own our wild self, which means letting go of those tight reins controlling our Self or extinction will include humans as well?
What if each day we need to ask, what can I do today to express my wild self? What action will I allow others to see?
My stomach reacts,a feeling arises of my inner little girl whispering, “how wild will you let me be?”