The Pain in Darkness and Light

I’d like to share my major ahh ha this week. It starts with the huge realization this morning that Nature and my inner and outer Darkness feel the same to me. They are both nurturing, slowed down, a feeling energy that allows me to feel safe, protected, loved.

However, I have for 40 years worked on clearing all the negative  emotions from experiences that I experienced  in Darkness. mostly sexual. that had made Darkness a scary place.

When I had finally cleared most of those emotions I had a powerful and unforgettable  visit to the huge Darkness of the universe and felt it’s loving creative presence.

I began to love my personal space of Darkness. I can be there for hours, my eyes closed, without responding to any technology. It’s very peaceful and contemplative. The same feeling I have when I step into a tree scape, or be by a river, or lake at night or during the day. 

The Light of day is pure too but the Light that humans have created and cocreated holds many painful beliefs and hurtful experiences that have to be healed before we can truly embrace a purer Light.

We want to embrace Light coming from outside our planetary home or someone who feels like they truly radiate light. But that person has healed the emotional experiences and beliefs that polluted their energy field.

The pollution we are experiencing on our planet now is our creation and it is held in our emotional bodies and it polluted our Light essence.

The anger,  the fires, the beliefs, the blame,  guilt, the superiority over each other, cruelty, competition.  All the energy of these emotions and beliefs fill and contaminate  and pollute our individual Light essence.

There are many people healing these aspects in themselves. I had not seen this purity of Light and Darkness this way before.  I still see a lot of  “badness” in my/our Light which means I still have more to heal but I now have a window of clarity that I  can  and will aspire to.

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Vision Overload

  1. We’ve reached a place of vision overload in our culture. That means we are putting all our attention into what we see. Our listening skills are diminishing as we prefer texting short sentences to talking on the phone or even talking in person.

Hearing was the most prominent sense when the radio made it’s debut. Listening became very important because we couldn’t see who was speaking.We had to really focus our attention on listening to every word. We had to imagine what the speaker looked like. At that time the vision sense took a back seat to the auditory sense. Now it has reversed.

Our vision is more connected to our logical mind whereas our hearing is more connected to our creative mind. So the shift to our vision is creating more attachment to our logical mind.

Vision is enhanced by light. Our eyes crave light. Now we have very close intense light added to our vision commentary which tends to make it addictive.

The question which arose for me as I have been preparing to facilitate Owning Our Senses, An Experiential Journey … is which of our senses needs to be ready to take the lead?

We are entering a time where what we read can no longer be trusted. What we thought was truth too often is not.

I believe intuition is the next sense that will have to be owned, that trust in what we feel, see, hear, touch will have to come from within, from our intuition. That means trusting our own bodies, it means being more present with each moment. It means accepting an inmate intelligence within us and letting go of logical mind totally dominating our consciousness.

This had to happen to the characters in my novels, Awakening Earth Chronicles, in order to move out of the past into present time.

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I and We Relationships

I woke up about 3am this morning in a lucid type of dream in which I was being shown, or taught, the difference between “I” and “We” relationships.

“I” relationships tend to be competitive, with. each person dedicated to their own journey.

“We” relationships are inclusive, both parties wanting the interaction of the other.

If an “I” person is in a relationship with a “We” person, the “We” person will expect a relationship, will feel responsible for all aspects because the “I” person sees it differently, they need more separation.

If I say I am a democrat, I separate myself from republicans. If I say I am an American I am more inclusive.

My journey in this dream was about my relationship with Earth/Gaia. How do I as a human let go of that “I” to become a “We” with Earth/Gaia? I saw an imprinted superiority of “I” as human (or maybe as a white person) that would have to be shed.

I have in the last couple years begun asking questions and listening to trees.  They tell me what they want to be called. It has been up to me to ask questions, but they do answer them. So far they have not asked me anything or I haven’t chosen to hear.

I’ve been noticing how much my little Chihuahua,  Sammy tries to converse with me but I speak English and he speaks dog. His tail is part of his communicating process. He gets so excited when I finally get what he’s been trying to tell me!

I walked Sammy, this morning and stopped to talk to a favorite tree, who wants to be called Rosa. I asked Rosa what it was like to have me ask questions and listen to her answers. She said it was the difference between being observed and being SEEN.

I sense my next step is being willing and open to be seen by Earth/Gaia. I can feel   “I”  needs to be let go of to experience a new “We”.

Reaction Impulses

I had a discussion today with a friend about reaction and how it victimizes us. Of course we both had a few experiences where we felt victimized to share and examine.
We agreed that we have a choice in each moment to respond or react to any situation but to respond we must be totally present.
When we first experience something, we have no experience to guide us. We both agreed that we often hide within when this happens and become submissive. My observer can see me afraid to act. By hiding within I am cut off from parts of Self that can protect this body. This can bring up fear. I may project my fear outward, perhaps hoping “the other” will show compassion. I am unable to act when I “hide” within.

The second type of reaction is where I use anger to come forward energetically and scare “the other” into hiding. (reaction). This can happen when I feel the need to control a situation.
Both of these reactions come from separation within myself caused by judgment, fear and competition.

When I am fully present and focusing more on gratitude and trust of myself and “the other” I don’t have to Be perfect. My words and actions then feel appropriate. I feel centered, not hiding within and not pushing outward, therefore I have access to all of Self. There is no competition. Response allows me to feel whole, relaxed, sometimes elated, trusted, part of a conversation that flows like a gentle river.

Reaction happens when I feel separated and create a wall around Self. It feels like two wells that can’t quite grasp the others depth, clarity or pollution. When there is no trust of Self or the “other” I will likely fall into the old pattern of reacting.

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Trees and Our Intelligence

I have been a TreeSister for 1 1/2 years. It’s a great program, contributing to planting trees and supporting women plus an in-depth spiritual program and connection to other women globally. Plus connecting to Trees! Deep meditations and heart sharing in a world that has seemed more cutting than embracing.

I have connected more and more deeply with trees, asking questions and having a voice answer that sometimes almost blows me over. The love from trees is intense and of course they are a lot bigger than me.

I noticed how the taller, elder trees held a different energy than the younger 40 to 60 year old trees. To stand in the presence of a tree that you know is several hundred years old is a true gift.

I meditated on this gift of energy bestowed and got that trees not only breathe us as we breathe them but they store a history of all they have breathed in their trunks. They create a sense of peace, that we live on as they live on, but when we continually harvest them we in our ignorance also diminish our connection to our own area, our Earthly home, our sense of peace.

I can walk around the area I live in and almost all the trees are about 50 years old. There are a few close to 100 and they emit a sense of elderlyness and wisdom that the younger trees do not.

I see that pattern in our life, that pattern that elders are no longer important. I also see the pattern for youth, as more baby trees are planted but our pattern has been to harvest them, at 40 to 60 years. I think the children feel this in their breath.

The wisdom, It’s in every breath we breathe. Buddah found enlightenment sitting under a very old tree for seven weeks. He breathed in all the wisdom
from all who had walked before him stored in the ancient trunk of that tree. That bodhi tree is now 2500 years old and still alive!

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Fire and Ice

The polarity we are living in is very visible to me but perhaps not to all and is obviously avoided by news media. The polarity is between Water and Fire. Fire creates movement for all Life forms but is usually perceived as light or is invisible.

Our world has taken Fire into physical form as constant destruction. War and weaponry are fire energy and are constantly used as our way to get control of fossil fuels. Fossil fuels are then turned into more physical fire (which creates money for those in control of Fire at this time.)

Fire is a natural Element instrumental in the creation of Life. (Along with Soil, Air and Water.) Fire is of Nature and in it’s natural form not meant to be controlled. In it’s physical form, Fire as weaponry is  controlled.  Fire in it’s natural physical form is not very controllable and as out of control energy becomes hungry and is now moving into forests creating even more of a disfunction in our climate and is now affecting water in it’s frozen form.(Melting ice)
What hit me today is how our government is using I.C.E. to scream of it’s terror of  the rising tides of people and the need for a huge wall, a wall to keep out the refugees fleeing countries where “our out of balance Fire energy” melted their economy. (Income, Country and Economy: ICE)
Like rising waters the people flee but as actual ice melts because of this out of balance destructive Fire energy, the focus is all on “those risingrpeople” when we could be building actual sea walls that will be needed very soon to protect all the coastal cities.
This is when Intuition is talking but those with power to help with actual change are not listening. Instead they are reacting, pretending that out of balance Fire is not there. Pretending they have nothing to do with ice melting.
The shift must be made away from Fire to Water, the sacredness of Water for all Life’s survival. If we begin to focus on water we will see what needs to be done for the well being of all Life forms instead of unconsciously creating more destruction.

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Channeling, Writing and Reading

Channeling a story needs me to be at least 2 people, maybe 3! One of me sits quietly in a high enough frequency to see and feel a beam of whitish, golden light the width of my shoulders, come into my body and crown chakra. There were no words, but there were lots of pictures, people and was like watching a movie with no sound. I observed a story unfolding. The channelling of Awakening Earth Chronicles took 4 intense years.

The 2nd part of me had to translate this frequency, all these pictures that appeared, into words, words that explained the story  that I was watching inwardly with my third eye.

Then another part of me would frequently dream at night about different episodes of the story. The dreams connected me to the feelings in the story. I had no logical sense of where the story was going. I had to trust this process of an unfolding story.

It’s been 3 years since I published Fear of Uniting, the last book in the Chronicles and in these last years I have reread all 3 books about 5 times.  Each time I reread them I feel I am integrating the wisdom I was channelling that still  needs to be integrated into more parts of me, into my conscious Self. In other words my characters in AWAKENING EARTH CHRONICLES are more conscious than me and give me direction! I have to reread my novels to continuec to integrate the wisdom into the logical part of me that wasn’t invited into the channelling, writing experience!

I needed to write this today to understand my own process!!

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