I’d like to share my major ahh ha this week. It starts with the huge realization this morning that Nature and my inner and outer Darkness feel the same to me. They are both nurturing, slowed down, a feeling energy that allows me to feel safe, protected, loved.
However, I have for 40 years worked on clearing all the negative emotions from experiences that I experienced in Darkness. mostly sexual. that had made Darkness a scary place.
When I had finally cleared most of those emotions I had a powerful and unforgettable visit to the huge Darkness of the universe and felt it’s loving creative presence.
I began to love my personal space of Darkness. I can be there for hours, my eyes closed, without responding to any technology. It’s very peaceful and contemplative. The same feeling I have when I step into a tree scape, or be by a river, or lake at night or during the day.
The Light of day is pure too but the Light that humans have created and cocreated holds many painful beliefs and hurtful experiences that have to be healed before we can truly embrace a purer Light.
We want to embrace Light coming from outside our planetary home or someone who feels like they truly radiate light. But that person has healed the emotional experiences and beliefs that polluted their energy field.
The pollution we are experiencing on our planet now is our creation and it is held in our emotional bodies and it polluted our Light essence.
The anger, the fires, the beliefs, the blame, guilt, the superiority over each other, cruelty, competition. All the energy of these emotions and beliefs fill and contaminate and pollute our individual Light essence.
There are many people healing these aspects in themselves. I had not seen this purity of Light and Darkness this way before. I still see a lot of “badness” in my/our Light which means I still have more to heal but I now have a window of clarity that I can and will aspire to.