Aligning Self

I am honestly shocked at my recent realization that I’ve been choosing between my thinking, feeling or heart minds. Even though I say I want to experience wholeness, I was choosing mind over feeling, conveniently forgetting that feeling is my intuitive connection.  It tells me what feels true about what’s happening, about people I’m with and when it feels they are not being totally honest with me or to themselves. However, intuition doesn’t  include my own mental beliefs. I got severely caught by that in December and was afraid to trust again.
It’s perhaps the political environment with all the lies or maybe because after focusing on my  dream life for over five years that I had a dream that showed me I was processing everything I watched on TV and everything I read as a part of me, in my dreams. I saw how I choose what goes in and what comes out. I was choosing these elements to excite me but they aren’t really what i want in my life.
I also choose what part of me I listen to .. and if  divided …  each will lead me in a different direction.
If  I just listen to my mind I get pictures and mental information.  If I just listen to my gut, I pick up a load of feelings, mine and what i pick up from what people say …  and don’t say.  Sometimes my heart/soul isn’t interested in any of it. I’d hear “Whatever” and feel confused.
But after I did a month of comforting my 3 lower chakras meditations (last post)  and listening to what they offer and what they feel if and when I turn away from their information that i realized I still held judgment over the information my gut has for me, that I often judged it’s information as unnecessary or i didn’t want to hear it because it conflicted with a decision I’d already made. Quite often I’d choose mind play. (reading, watching tv, talking politics or writing or art)
But I’m learning it isn’t about choosing one type of information over the other but realizing I need information from all minds to make the best kind of choices. That any intentions i set without all my minds won’t work. They will compete for my attention and waste my energy.
and I’m learning I  have different mind assets but if not used together they may not be assets!

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